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Unavoidably Me - BiPolar Sucks

geminibpMay. 21st, 2012 01:09 am Unavoidably Me

 I have to say I've discovered some uniquely interesting side effects from being a bipolar guy. I'm a stubby white kid with glasses on the cushier side of average. At first glance I'm a walking cliche, a picture perfect nerd with poor skin. Obviously anxious ridden with too much vocabulary stuttered out for my own good. People refrain from conversation for fear of becoming inundated with technical jargon or obscure references to cyber culture or video games. I might have even been that person were it not for the bipolar. That's not to say I wouldn't opt out of the bipolar in an instant in favor of dungeons and dragons and being incapable of speaking to women who aren't digital. Having bipolar makes me the most emotional person in the room meds or no. I'm basically a chick in a nerds body. Freaky Friday has got nothing on this shit. Guys don't get it. Girls are torn between trying to decide if I'm gay or just clairvoyant.

I don't know how to tie a tie, professional sports are Greek to me. I talk more than any girl I've ever met. I cry during movies more often than I'm comfortable admitting. If my life depended on my interest in and knowledge of cars I wouldn't live past the length of this sentence.  I have the technical savvy of a toddler eating sand at the beach. I have forgotten more basic algebra than I ever learned. The right side of my brain lifts weights. The left side looks somewhere between a deflated balloon and cottage cheese. Pride and Prejudice,Jane Eyre, Little Women, Anne of Green Gables, you name it if chicks dig it I like it too. Looking like a walking calculator and feeling like a chick is one of the more interesting ironies of my life. Thankfully the weirdness won't in all likelihood require any surgical remodeling. I'm quite fond of my man bits thank you very much. I can't help being bipolar but I might as well laugh at the absurdities that come attached. Do any of you guys find yourselves in a similar place?

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From:lolgirl2325
Date:May 22nd, 2012 01:27 am (UTC)
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I don't know if this exactly counts, however I've found that being bipolar has left me more emotional than even most women I know(and I'm a woman myself). The paragraphs you wrote are basically how I feel daily...I always seem to care more, feel more, I'm definitely always the most emotional person in the room meds or not...so I guess you're not alone.

I don't really know much about video games, or cars, but if you're ever lonely or need someone to talk to or vent or whatever you can message and friend me-I know how the struggles of bipolar can be hard to handle alone.

-Sarah
From:anonymousdecay
Date:June 1st, 2012 01:51 am (UTC)
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i think i can relate. the same but opposite.

sometimes i feel like a 12 year old boy trapped in a woman's body.