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opaloctoberMay. 2nd, 2013 06:39 pm Meds

How long does it take to hit you if you miss your meds?? If i miss one night i feel off, and by the next DAY im suicidal and dangerous. I take a week at a time with me wherever I go because im so afraid something will happen and i can't get them. My meds are my lifeline. What meds do you take? Im on 80mg geodon 2x/day, and lexapro 40mg.

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enditnow24Aug. 22nd, 2012 10:08 pm Yes it Does

I've been going to doctors for over a year now. I've been diagnosed with depression, with severe manic tendencies, and general anxiety disorder. I flip on a dime, I self harm, and then other days I'm just a normal happy college student full of energy and making friends. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?! I feel like two different people most of the time. I'm on something now for depression but it's honestly doing nothing for me. I've actually felt more depressed now that I'm on it, and have been self harming more than usual. I need help. Someone. Please.

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geminibpMay. 21st, 2012 01:09 am Unavoidably Me

 I have to say I've discovered some uniquely interesting side effects from being a bipolar guy. I'm a stubby white kid with glasses on the cushier side of average. At first glance I'm a walking cliche, a picture perfect nerd with poor skin. Obviously anxious ridden with too much vocabulary stuttered out for my own good. People refrain from conversation for fear of becoming inundated with technical jargon or obscure references to cyber culture or video games. I might have even been that person were it not for the bipolar. That's not to say I wouldn't opt out of the bipolar in an instant in favor of dungeons and dragons and being incapable of speaking to women who aren't digital. Having bipolar makes me the most emotional person in the room meds or no. I'm basically a chick in a nerds body. Freaky Friday has got nothing on this shit. Guys don't get it. Girls are torn between trying to decide if I'm gay or just clairvoyant.

I don't know how to tie a tie, professional sports are Greek to me. I talk more than any girl I've ever met. I cry during movies more often than I'm comfortable admitting. If my life depended on my interest in and knowledge of cars I wouldn't live past the length of this sentence.  I have the technical savvy of a toddler eating sand at the beach. I have forgotten more basic algebra than I ever learned. The right side of my brain lifts weights. The left side looks somewhere between a deflated balloon and cottage cheese. Pride and Prejudice,Jane Eyre, Little Women, Anne of Green Gables, you name it if chicks dig it I like it too. Looking like a walking calculator and feeling like a chick is one of the more interesting ironies of my life. Thankfully the weirdness won't in all likelihood require any surgical remodeling. I'm quite fond of my man bits thank you very much. I can't help being bipolar but I might as well laugh at the absurdities that come attached. Do any of you guys find yourselves in a similar place?

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lilbirdieeeMar. 25th, 2012 11:45 pm ihatethis

i got diagnosed when i was 16. i have my manic ups and downs. its affecting every relationship i have.its either take the pills and loose who i am. or dont take them and loose all my friends, the love of my life, and my sanity. i cant take it anymore, why cant everything just be okay for once. no matter what- its my fault, and no matter what- i hate who im becoming.

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geminibpMar. 16th, 2012 08:50 pm Hi all

I'm 23 and new to the livejournal scene. I guess a bit more experienced on the bipolar side of things. I'm just looking for other folks in the same boat. Somehow safety in numbers means a lot more these days than it once did.

gem  

450mgs x3 Lithium XR
300mgs Seroquel XR
30mgs Propranalol

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bipolarcrochetMar. 5th, 2012 09:19 pm Introduction

I'm 24 years old and in Chicago. After a long absence, I started a new lj. I was diagnosed with bipolar about a year ago after getting a bunch of other diagnoses, and I'm looking for friends in similar situations and for friends with more experience with this diagnosis.

My blog is mostly a place to encourage my crocheting and knitting as coping mechanisms, so I post a lot of project pics. I'm always interested in meeting other crafters!

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taniwhanuiMar. 5th, 2012 01:00 pm

So there's this guy I've had a crush on and who I've been getting to know, and I found out yesterday that he is bipolar and that he killed a cat several years ago during a psychotic episode he can't remember, and I have two cats I love dearly and am a big animal lover, and it's kinda weirding me out a bit. Didn't hear it from him, heard it from a close friend of his (and mine). I still like him, but it's a lot to take in. I realize that he is remorseful about it and that he is an animal lover too, but still ... not sure what to think or how to feel about that, and would value some feedback to try and put it in perspective. Thanks.

Crossposted in other bipolar communities ...

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xjubesxJan. 11th, 2012 03:00 pm New Member

Hi, my name is Christina. 
I was diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder when I was about 23.
I'm now 28 and I live in Texas.
Feel free to friend me and I will add you back. I'm looking for others out there in a similar situation. :)

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meemer79Apr. 5th, 2011 09:41 am blackouts

i"ve been having them. and i've been doing bad things during them. has this happened to anyone else? xposted multiple times

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spikeswhiteroseMar. 16th, 2011 11:19 pm God where has this place been??????

Hi there, new to the community.
My name is Cleta. I was diagnosed bi-polar in December 1997. I was 28 at the time, married and a mom to two boys two and five. So this has been a roller coaster for me. Both of my boys know, I've never hidden my mental illness from them at all.
My main thing that I'm going through right now is that we're doing the 'cocktail' thing. I just started Remeron after not being on an antidepressant in years and my body is not too happy about it. Funny thing how the body likes to have its own way ya know?
I've got a sense of humor about my bi-p. I think you really have to in order to survive it.
Nice to be here!! ::waving at everyone::

Sending huggs and chocolate,
Cleta

Current Location: here as usual
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: quiet but just wait.....

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